Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The First day of the rest of my Life

I am a 23 year old girl, living in Sydney. I am going through a major change, and need some form of release where I can express and reflect on my thoughts. I hope this blog will be that place.

Now to explain the changes I'm going through, where do I begin? I finished studying a double degree in Commerce and Law at the end of last year, and unlike my colleagues who all seemed to have their careers planned out, I had no direction at all. I'm not attracted to a corporate lifestyle where my time is spent tending to the pursuits of money-hungry individuals. Long story short, I am currently taking some time off to reflect on what I want my life to be. This is the first time in my life where I don't know where I am headed, and after 9 months, I still have not figured out what I want in life.The uncertainty scares me.

I was also living with my boyfriend of one year. It was the first time I had moved out of home and my parents opposed it. A few weeks ago he decided he needed a break and I moved back in with my parents. The break and having to confront my parents has been tough and has only added to my confusion.

I don't know if anyone else has experienced this but ever since high school finished, I feel like I'm unable to make many friends. At uni all my classes had different people and would run once or twice a week. My classmates left straight after class. As a result, I didn't make many friends at uni, and saw my high school friends infrequently. Now with this break I'm taking, I meet even less people. People tell me to take up hobbies to meet new people, but it's hard to meet people I can connect with. It gets lonely at times.

Right now I'm studying to become a qualified solicitor. After a few months of traveling and volunteer work, I needed something to do to fill the void. Although I don't have life figured out yet, I thought that having this qualification will only help my resume look more attractive to potential employers. Besides, even if I sat at home all day, my life's purpose is not going to suddenly hit me. 

So that's a bit about the changes I'm going through.


  1. I felt the same way after working for few years - I didn't enjoy corporate life and wasn't sure what to do. I still haven't figured it out. Good luck to you in finding your path and making new friends.

  2. Thank you! I hope you figure it out soon as well :)

  3. Wow I feel a lot like you in certain ways. I mean sure I work in corporate world but sometimes I wonder if I am taking the right path in my life.

    The thing I too struggle with is making friends. It is very difficult and often times I feel like no matter how hard I try I cant find real friends...just aquaintances.

    Well I hope that this blog helps you on your life path, I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason

  4. I'm 30 and left office work this year to go to university. I work one day a week and go to uni two days a week, not having to do the nine-to-five is suiting me so well :)

    And absolutely about the friends, I've said this so many times over the last few years. It's so hard to make new ones. And the idea of taking up a hobby is difficult too - I did a short course last year in Italian and met a heap of older couples... Not the bunch of fun friends I was hoping for! Anyway. Being at uni this year, I've met three or four great girls, but I live an hour away, so catching up out of class is difficult. What can you do?